Inner Healing. WRGY End of Month 1

Hey friends! So, I am a little behind on my weekly blog posts, but I am working on uploading two this week to catch up and also keep all of you updated on what the Lord has been teaching me in GA! In this blog, so for last week’s technically, I wanted to share my inner healing session with all of you and what that looked like. After having a one on one with my squad mentor, Madie, she asked if I would like to have this inner healing session soon. Before then, I had never heard what that was, but as she started explaining it to me, that’s when I knew this was exactly what I needed. 

An inner healing session is when you sit with the Lord and one of your spiritual mentors in response to a deeply rooted or traumatic experience. This person would then guide you through questions to ask the Lord to bring healing and clarity to the situation. As the mentor does this, they are also praying and asking God to walk them through this session and stand alongside them as they lead it. There is also another leader, my team leader, who takes notes and prays against any spirit (for example, lies from the enemy), that is not from the Lord. If this person is discerning anything that is not from God, they pray against that as I am sitting and processing with God in this session. 

The reason I am sharing all of this with you today is because this was the most powerful, intimate, and reviving talk I’ve ever had with the Lord. He poured so much peace over me, gave me words of love and comfort, and answered so many of my questions that I have kept bottled up for years. Before this session, I felt the presence of God and heard from Him before, but never as clear as this. 

Last Monday, Madie (squad mentor), Nicole (team leader), and I went to our squad meeting point (SMP) and sat in one of the offices to begin. This took place away from the rest of our squad, mainly because this was a very personal, deep, and hard conversation that I needed to have on my own with God. Yes, my two leaders were in there, but praise God for them. Madie guided me so well and Nicole took such great notes during this session. Without their help I wouldn’t know what to do and also, because of Nicole, I am able to look back at the notes she took and remember what the Lord has taught me. It’s such a great reminder of what God has spoken over my life vs what the enemy tricked me into thinking for years. 

As we began the session, Madie prayed us in and asked the first question. “What memory does the Lord want to bring to mind?” I then asked God this question and sat in silence with Him for a few minutes. That’s when He brought me to a very traumatic experience that I had one night with one of my ex-boyfriends. I don’t want to share the specific details of this night, but all I will say is that I’ve spent years trying to heal from it. While processing this night with God, Madie went to the next question. “What lies do you believe because of this memory?” That’s when I just burst into tears, because for as long as I can remember, I have believed that everything that happened that night was my fault. I believed I was not good enough for this person, struggled with my identity, thought I was unworthy, out of control, became someone I wasn’t, and always felt like I was begging for love. 

That’s when I asked God this next question, “What truth do you want to speak over my worth and value?” I cried out, “He says I am special, like no other. I don’t need to beg for love anymore, because His love is all that I need. I am loved, adored, called by name, and chosen by Him. He has someone set aside for me that will treat me with a love that God has put inside of him.” That’s when the Lord gave me my first vision of Him and I. He showed me when I first got saved, going up to the alter, crying out His name saying “I surrender to you Jesus! I am all yours.” And when He brought me to that memory, He showed me, “Jamie, when you said yes to me, you said ‘I do’. You began your relationship with me. When you went from person to person, trying to find someone to love you, you could not find it. You must learn how to be loved by Me and find love in Me first. Then I will send the person I have just for you. A man who will not only love you, but love you like I love you.” This vision then ended with God and I sitting at the alter together hugging after I gave my life to Him.

I continued to ask God questions like, “What name do you call me? Where were you at that night? Can you speak truth over my fear of man and abandonment? Who do I need to forgive?”

All of these questions were hard, but His answer made it easier. Because each time, He poured me with His truth. He gave me visions of myself being set free. Him unlocking the handcuffs I had with the people who harmed me that night. Telling me the old has passed and the new has come. I am no longer “chained” to those people or my past, because my God has set me free. He showed me the love He has for me, reminded me who I was in Him, and expressed His love to me constantly during that session. 

When the session came to an end, I couldn’t help but just smile. God revealed so many new things to me and gave me so much clarity over everything in my life. I heard Him clearly for the first time, I learned more of who He was, I had my first vision from Him, and felt His presence so, so strongly. Everything that I had kept bottled up for years, He brought healing and comfort to those memories, taking all of that pain away from me in a matter of seconds. Later on that day, He backed up everything He showed me with scripture which made it even more incredible. 

Yay! Since this session took place, I have walked in more freedom and joy this week. I feel so light from all that held me down for forever and I just wanted to share all of that with you guys because it’s so, so exciting!

Hope all of you enjoyed this and are doing well! Message me if you have any questions or have any prayer requests! Thanks, and love you all lots! 🙂

–       Sending hugs all the way from GA, Jamie

 

After reading this session I’d love it if you sat with God and listened to this song.:

Amazing Grace (My Chains Are Gone) by Chris Tomlin